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Jun. 23rd, 2008 @ 11:23 am Voices #45 - "A simple question makes you look away..."
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"Papa... who is the man that shows up in my dreams from time to time with the Black Jewel?"

You've never been able to look at me and answer that question, Saetan. You never have. Every time I mention it, you turn your head away from me, but not before I see the sadness that flares up in your eyes. I know that you know who he is. I know that you're hiding something important from me, but what I don't understand is why.

Or maybe I do.

He has something to do with the accident that robbed me of two years of my life and my memories, doesn't he? He was there or he knows what happened. Does he know who hurt me... is he acting in your name even now to make sure they never harm us again?

Who is he, Papa? Who is he and why does thinking about whom he might be cause you pain and me emptiness? Who is the shadowy figure that I can never catch hold of... no matter how deep into the Abyss I try to go to get the answers?

Answers that I know you have.

Answers that you are not giving me.

Who is he and what shattered pieces of memory does he hold?

And again... you look away from the question... or from me.

Why, High Lord?

What is so devastating that you will not answer that one question?


Muse: Jaenelle Angelline
Fandom: Anne Bishop's "Black Jewels"
Word Count: 240
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Mar. 11th, 2008 @ 02:52 pm Voices #33-- What Doesn't Kill Us Makes Us Stronger... Do You Agree or Disagree?
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There are times that I both agree and disagree with this sentiment.

I look at Daemon and Lucivar and I see that the things that Dorothea and Hekatah did to them didn't kill them outright. I know that she thought they would break under the strain of what was being done. They wanted them to break, wanted them to agree to anything that the two of them wanted to do. Daemon and Lucivar didn't break. They survived and they stayed who they were. They never turned their backs on their Blood or on their morals. They both took everything that was done to them and used it to mold into them and shape the strength of who they have become.

I look at the Coven and the Boyos and I wonder at the things they have survived being done and how they were forced to change certain things because of the taint in the Blood.

I speak to Karla and I watch her, and I remember what is happening in Glacia and what Papa was afraid would happen to her. She is safe and is not broken, she is whole. But was it all of these things that helped to make her stronger or just her internal strength of will?

Then I look back over the things that happened to me in my childhood. Did those events make me stronger? I'm not sure if they did or not. They made me more cautious, and made me less tolerant of another's pain...less accepting of another's cruelty... but did they make me stronger for having survived them?

I really don't think that's a question that I can clearly answer.


Muse: Jaenelle Angelline
Fandom: "Black Jewels" series by Anne Bishop
Words: 277
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